Désolé pour vous causer la douleur. Comme je suis en larmes

Goodbye, no use leading with our chins
This is where our story ends
Never lovers, ever friends
Goodbye, let our hearts call it a day
But before you walk away
I sincerely want to say
I wish you bluebirds in the spring
To give your heart a song to sing
And then a kiss, but more than this
I wish you love
And in July a lemonade
To cool you in some leafy glade
I wish you health
But more than wealth
I wish you love
My breaking heart and I agree
That you and I could never be
So with my best
My very best
I set you free
I wish you shelter from the storm
A cozy fire to keep you warm
But most of all when snowflakes fall
I wish you love
But most of all when snowflakes fall
I wish you love
I wish you love
I wish you love, love, love, love, love
I wish you love

I wish you love - Rod Stewart.

This will be my last entry. Nothing last .. Even the best will end.

I wish you love
A tiny blip in you life
A foresaken love
That was never meant to be

Angel that went silent
And left a mark in my life
Angel once danced with me
And left a mark in my memories

I wish u love
From the clouds above
From the bottom of the sea
The gentle breeze

For i am undeserved
For i am unmerited
For i am fear
For i am lost

I wish you love
My angel
My love
My baby
My girl

Goodbye love

Goodbye my friends.. Thank you.

A bottle and a glass

A night out consist of a bottle of Heineken and a glass of red wine. A respite for the day. Would love to get more alcohol into my body but the craving isn’t there anymore.

When I woke up this morning, the only thing I m craving for is a cigarette. Normally, I don’t crave for cigarettes in the morning but then i craved for it lately. I don’t know why. I guess I am not sleeping well with all those dreams I am having. Tears and pain.

And I think I am going hiatus for a while. I am not sure how long. Maybe I will start a new blog somewhere. I guess this will be my last entry for a while. This blog has been a great companion to me. A space where I vent my feelings (of course not all) but there are loads of stuffs I couldn’t bear myself writing it anymore. I love this blog. I wouldn’t completely shut it down. Maybe I will update it once a while. But I will be writing somewhere.

Thank you for reading my blog. Appreciate it very much. For I am undeserved.


Amour, si vous lisez ceci, je suis sincèrement désolé. Je vous aimerai toujours avec mon coeur. Larmes ou rire. Je vous souhaite l'amour quand les flocons de neige tombent. Pour je suis immérité.


Have a good year ahead my friends and a blessed life.

7th August 2004

I still remember clearly the first day we met. You were wearing a polka dot pink blouse. With a three quarter jean and a rather humongous black bag. And wearing a Paul Frank’s watch. You look rather hippy and cute that day. Your sweet smile captures my heart instantly.

That day is where it all begins. A beautifully written chapter in my life was about to begin yet was badly shatter by me.

7th August 2004: A date that will always be close to my heart.

We laugh. We cry
We love. We don’t
We fight. We make up
We hurt. We healed
We are us. You and I
We forgive. But not forget
We understand. We don’t
The Ying. The Yang
Eternity? We will never know
I love you always.



Currently Playing : I Wish You Love – Rod Stewart.

The Angel Once Danced

I am feeling very numb today. Maybe is the weather, maybe is the holidays season or maybe I am just not looking forward to another day. Maybe

It had been a roller coaster ride for the past one and the half year. Something that I won’t regret going thru again expects a few things. A few things I did that will always be a scar in my heart. Remarks that were made that mutated into war of words. Hurtful remarks were hurl. Hurtful action was done. War of words prove and show our imperfections. The ying and yang

Words can’t describe how I felt now.

The angel that once danced in front me has gone silent
The wings of blissfulness is gone
The dreams that was once shared is being incarcerated
The passion was gone.
Hearts was broken
Time will not heal all wound
For I am undeserved

"When the cherryblossom colors flutter,
I’m aloneStanding exhausted, I can’t cut off these feelings bottled up inside"


Have a good day my friends


Currently Playing : Sakurairo Maukoro - Mika Nakashima

I am tired

You know how when you still care and love that someone, minor things still hurt you like hell. I am just so tired

I am tired of everything, my work and personal. I never did really write about my work and family life, but trust me, it suck. I am so tired if life…I m just so tired.

I tried my best in everything, but I m tired of trying anymore.

A friend of mine asked me the other day, “It had been almost a year now, why? “

Coz I gave my heart away a year ago and never took it back was my answer

Have a nice weekend my friends


Currently Playing : The Rainbow Connection - Sarah McLachlan

Happy Birthday Malaysia!

Sorry for the lack of updates. Been pretty busy doing nothing lately… lalalla
Anyway haven’t been reading any blogs for ages until recently. But this particular post caught my attention yesterday night. Yeah I know I m so outdated but so what? :P

No matter how fuck up is the public transportation
No matter how fuck up is Petaling Street
No matter how fuck up is the food court
No matter how fuck up is the system

No matter how imperfect Malaysia is, Malaysia and especially Kuala Lumpur is where I called home. My home sweet home. . It's home

And to this fella who apologize on behalf of KL-ians

Please, fuck off. Thank you.

Now I am being very nice with stating Please and Thank you.


Happy Belated Birthday, Malaysia!! : D

Currently Playing : Everytime We Say Goodbye - Rod Stewart

Why I Gave Up

Sorry, I don’t believe in relationship anymore. I know this is a strong statement… Maybe it will be more appropriate to say I gave up on relationship anymore.

I see the person I love and still love her very much got hurt. I see my friends got hurt. I see my ex-girlfriends got hurt. And I see myself got hurt.

I know relationship and falling in love is wonderful. The feeling of being love and giving your love. It is a fairytales come true when we fall in love with the one who you thought you will spend the rest of your life with. I was once in that position.

But we fell out of love too. I gave up. I am tired. I am tired going thru the process of recovering, the process of locking your wonderful memories away. I am tired of crying at nights. I am tired of those painful things I do. I am tired of life……….

But most of all I don’t want to see the person I love getting hurt …. I know love is a wonderful thing but in relationship there are always chances of getting hurt or hurting your the other half.

I just don’t want to see the person I love getting hurt again, thus I gave up on relationship. I don’t know how long this will last but I reckon it will be long.

And hey, this has nothing to do with anyone…. Is just me….my heart, my life, my love..
Sorry


I know this is a pretty lame excuse... but then so what ... sue me? It is me...


Currently Playing : God Only Knows – The Beach Boys

Why?

Why do we fight? We do we insist of fighting, clinging on even though w know there is not even a slightest hope. Why?

Why do we continue to hurt on even though we know there is no end to it?

Why do we cling on when there is no hope at all?

Are we afraid? What are we afraid of?
We’ve already lost that wonderful someone. What are we afraid of anymore?

Are we afraid of losing dreams?
There is no our dreams anymore. Just memories. What dreams?


Why then? We all know the answer why. I know why.
Sorry


Good night my friends.

Oh yar, i am back from Singapore.. : ) and i m so broke... SD150 on 6 cds...

Currently Playing : gymnopedie – myleene klass

Ps: Anyone traveling? I am out of Davidoff Lights!!!! Arrghhh..I need to restock : P

A chapter

Will time heal all wound? Maybe it will, maybe it won’t. Regardless, there will be scars whether we like it or not. Scars that will stay. Scars that you hope it will never stay.

You wanted to move on, but on the other hand you feel heavy hearted to move on. Ironic isn’t it. A new chapter in your life is to begin. Life is like a book, where there is a new chapter in your life and a closure of a previous chapter. As life, you felt heavy hearted to leave the previous chapter behind no matter how much it is hurting you.

A chapter so wonderful, when you close the chapter, it doesn’t seem right and you want to continue hurting on. Ironic? Yes. You felt you let yourself down.

Dreams was shatter
Hearts was hurt
Tears was shed

But do you really hope for recovery and move on? I doubt so……….

“In a relationship, you bring the best out of the person and vice-versa and fulfil our dreams "


I am sorry

Cheers mate

Why the negativity my friend?


We walk, we sprint, once in a while we fall but we rise higher.

We love, we fall out of love, but we care forever

We cry, we laugh, and the bond grew stronger

We fight, we curse but friendship is for eternity

And I’ll always stand by your side no matter what

Cheers mate.